OH MILORD.

everyone. listen closely. read. "we need to talk about kevin" by lionel shriver. it's a frickin good book. omgomgomgomgomgomg. and horribly chim words but you should be able to get the gist. omg i am so not widely read. *needs to read more. and not eddings either* despite my penchance for always "expecting the worst" (to quote eva khatchadourian. elean should know. my "what happens to draco" theories always end with him dying.), i didn't expect the ending. at all. i mean. we all know kk killed 9 people. we all know that. but how, and who, and everything GAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! is loath to give spoilers. but. *gives in*

WARNING. dee. do not read further.

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OMG. FRANKLIN. CELIA. i mean. the whole time i thought they were divorced and some parental negligence suit had been filed against eva i mean after the liquid-plumr incident who wouldn't? but to be dead? shot dead, no less, left in the backyard by her lovely son. omgomgogmogmomg. THE WAY SHE FOUND HIS BODY. heartbreaking!!!!!!! i would have cried, but was too shell shocked to do anything except make incoherent whining noises, like when my mom interrupted the scene where dumbledore died. like ARGH. HEARTBREAK. SHOCK. and the way it was written!!!!!!! omgomgomgomg. *loves lionel shriver* wahahahahhahahahahaha. and kevin is such a disturbed kid. i mean. whoa. deranged. off the scale. he likes being ahead of everyone, making everyone useless. he makes his mom feel like shit. yet. yet. he still loves her, in a way. in his own, private way. he admires her, but never lets it show because he wants to think he's superior, that he doesn't need her. that he doesn't need anyone. and he's so damn cocky. oh man. and the deceit! the lies! how he does all these horrible horrible things to people, makes excuses to his dad and his dad wholeheartedly believes him while even though his mom knows better, the dad thinks his mom needs a shrink! (i'm sorry, something's gotten over me. i can't write or think in coherent sentences anymore. gack.) i mean. WHOA. talk about distrust and tearing apart family bonds. the mom on her own is such a complex character. this is like, getting in the head of someone's mom. not a "i love my kids" mom, but a mom who confesses to distrusting her son and breaking his arm. i mean. whoa. and how she writes about travelling the world, how she hates americans and yet is becoming one herself - thinking she's so superior. i suppose we all do that sometimes but to hear that from a worldly woman with a multi-million dollar company and a husband and two kids - whoa. it was a wonder they weren't divorced yet. and the way it builds up, all the way from before conceiving kevin (answering "the Big Question". what is it, anyway? "what are we here for?"? hm.) up til after. when he's gonna go into a proper state prison rather than a juvie hall. 8th june 1999. omgomg. and the end, when she asked why he did it. the question everyone's been asking. he isn't a social outcast, he had good grades, he wasn't poor, he wasn't of a minority race, his parents weren't divorced, he had a sister to play with, i mean what was wrong with his life? and he just tells her that two years on, he's not sure anymore. and that's enough. that's enough, i suppose to know that kevin feels remorse. that he's no longer stiff, aloof, but actually feels something other than smug satisfaction. it's great, to have kevin humanised, in a way. the whole time he's been a son of a bitch (and yes, i think eva was rather nasty as well, though i probably would have assasinated kevin myself long ago BURNING OUT HIS SISTER'S EYE, for crying out loud. WITH SLOW ACTING ACID.) but now we can actually feel some sort of pity or compassion for him, i dunno. killed 11 people (dad and sis dead in the archery field, each at least three bolts through them.), but still. he's really weird, in a way. a very interesting character to analyse. how he thinks through everything, and writes essays with three letter words ONLY, and implicates others in crimes they never committed. i wonder what he felt, when his parents were close to divorce. oh gods

i gotta read the book again.

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OMG. LIT DEPT, HERE'S A BOOK FOR YOU. won some orange award, for which it was in the papers twice.

:D:D 30++ bucks at kino, but free at your local library. or at least, at mine, anyway. :D:D

today. TODAY. i wasted tons of time BECAUSE i lacked psychic vision and could not foresee that we'd have at least 1 free period today. sadness. and my zuo ye sat happily at home, still uncompleted. and KEVIN, still uncompleted. close to the end though. but. in class, i would never have gotten a page in. i can't concentrate. too much background noise, potentially interesting conversation, classmates doing honky accents i mean, c'mon. i think only kell can concentrate. seeing her all absorbed in lirael (another good book. go read read read.)

CAN SOMEONE TELL ME HOW TO STOP THE "AURORA - PART OF THE MICROSOFT NETWORK" CASINO ADS FROM APPEARING??

wasted wasted wasted. all that time. gahhhhhh.

OMG ELAN. you're losing your ship! poor girl. and then she decided to try strangle me in class, and when kell dragged me away she claimed melandkel to be her new otp. brill.

hmmm. *thinks of last week* passed damn fast. OHMILORD. chi pt. ahahahhahahaha. sucked. pronunciation sucked. wahahahhahahaha. but vid was good. despite two of the bloopers being made by my bad pronounciation too wahahahhahaa.

i have recently reorganised my links! :D:D nine separate categories for easy reference. fics, groups etc. :D:D *is proud of self. thinks about rs. mood dips a little*

OH OH OH. during eng. zhen suggested we write a story (she gets the ideas, i execute. our phys car is a good example. cough.) and said it should be deep and sad. so. lotsa rain, cliches and heartbreak ensued. damnnnnnn cheesy. i mean. if you want a sad fluffy thing OMG IT'S RAINING. NO WONDER IT'S SO COOL that's kinda cheesy at the same time, go for it. rather fun to do though. all that overdramatisation. XP

OH NO. CHICKEN STEW TOMR. GACK. horror. and lucifer didn't pick on me! :D:D but. but. ONE-ON-ONE. omg. i wonder what mine will be like. *is filled with trepidation*

OH OH OH. we got our rs file back!!!!!! *hugs file. has much love for file.*

qianni has an inner drama streak we never knew. and kellynn's built-in cookie radar sends her "pouncing" like a deranged wildcat onto every cookie within sight. i tell you that girl needs help.

coldplay has guitar scores. GUITAR. what happened to all the piano in their songs, huh?? i can't play the guitar! and the book costs 30 bucks! and so do each of the lotr scores that i'm not too sure i really want but will probably buy anyway so i won't waste so much time analysing themes in the soundtrack! but my mom says she will get me all three IF i pass my grade 8 practical! which sounds relatively feasible. i think. (i hope) and. i realise. that whenever i try to think of the jurassic park theme song, i always start singing the gondor one, you know, when boromir stands up at the council and when merry and gandalf (NOW I KNOW WHY PEOPLE WRITE MERRY/GANDALF. THAT WHOLE JOURNEY TOGETHER THING IS IRRISISTABLE. OMG.) first see minas tirith, i think. :D:D sigh. when i watch lotr i'll sing to the soundtrack and kell will quote. wonderful. we could produce a whole movie.

omg. cat class sex ed has become major slash discussion. like, they mention sex and someone (me or janice :D:D) will say sth about harry or draco and geri will join in about erestor and glorfindel and we'll just go on and on. and OMG joo didn't know what oral sex was until recently!!!!! WAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAAA. omgomgomg.

i have three new pairs of dangly :D earrings which i blew 12 bucks on. :D:D:D:D pretty. *loves dangly earrings* gnia actually thought it was a religious thing when i told her i couldn't wear undecided earrings. i mean, they're not studs, but they're not long either!! MAKE UP YOUR MIND. i need another piercing. wanted to do right but everyone says it's gay. grrr. my sis tells me to do a cartilage. thanks, but no thanks. looking at zhen, and judging from my infrequent exposure to pain of any sort (the most recent one was hitting my leg on the table. and that was at most, minute.), i think i'd better not.

well look at the time! 7pm. time for dinner, shower, then ZUOYE. and tomorrow i will come downstairs and stare sadly at KEVIN, then at demon lord of karanda, and wonder if i should abandon my grand plan to read the whole belgariad and malloreon, just as i did years before. sigh.