everybody has nightmares. scott dreams about his parents dying, jean about freaky circus magicians, rogue about mystique's past, and even logan has nightmares about having adamantium injected into his skeleton. me? i dream about being late for school. this morning i woke up PANTING at SEVEN AM (still pretty dark) cos i just had a nightmare about being damn late for school. it was what, 7.30 in my dream? and i was still at home, packing god knows what. it was pure panic. like. smallville-esque panic mode. alot of panicking and everyone else being so damn calm. that's what i hate about my "OH MY EARS AND WHISKERS I'LL BE LATE!" dreams. like. i'm running around in an obvious state of frenzy and everyone else is just SITTING THERE. like. TOTALLY CALM AND UNFAZED. LIKE ALL IS WELL IN THE WORLD WHEN IT'S NOT!!! I'M LATE!!! all is NOT well!!!!!! WHY CAN'T ANYONE SEE THAT I'M PANICKING AND OBVIOUSLY NEED HELP???? like. PANIC WITH ME!!!! gahhhhhh.

watched batman begins today. ICH GOOT. C'EST BIEN. HEN HAO. (like that pathetic chinese policeman with the weird accent.) it's dark, deep and intense. like. WHOA. an action movie WITH DEEP THOUGHTS. like. concepts, ideas, feelings, inner conflict. i mean, you're not just getting into the batsuit. you're getting into his head. like. how he thinks. it's good. the world is short of good, deep movies that aren't full of sexual content these days. american beauty at HMV is M18. gahhh. dad will never buy for me. technically it ain't worth it cos i just wanna watch the cut scenes. the voyeuristic part of me wants to see the military man kiss kevin spacey. and csi is NC? what's wrong with them mannn.

oh but katie holmes has this face, that in 20, 30 years down the road is gonna sag like hell, like one of those old grannies with the saggy cheeks, the bulldog look, you know? i mean C'MON tom cruise, you had NICOLE KIDMAN for cryin out loud why'd you leave her? sadness.

call me slow but MSN 7.0 is so fun!!!!! like. WHEEEEE!!!!!!! the little comment thingy below and the prettiness of it all and seeing disp pics like WHOA.

AND. ho ho ho. my friend has just kindly informed me that in greek mythology some weird god guy named his donkey melissa! DAMN. I'M NAMED AFTER A FREAKIN DONKEY? who like, "felled" a giant. geez. of all the creatures in the world a DONKEY???? why not the pretty flying horse? i mean, C'MON.

i don't like the bat tank. you know. that thing he calls a CAR. it's so, *shivers* unaesthetically appealing. i mean, why didn't he stick with the convertible/sports car thing? the one with the two girls in the front seat? do a bond mannn, get a good car! i know this thing can like, what, leap humongous "chasms" (what was that word you used, qianni?) etc but come on, look at it! it's just ugly. you know. everytime i watch justice league, and everytime wonder woman gets her rope out i always HAVE to say, "the lasso of truth, freedom and justice!" for some obscure reason. and the thing with her going, "great hera!" and "hera give me strength" and "hera help us" is so whoa. like. wonder woman has a religion! which is greatly emphasized in an epi i just to happened to watch where hawkgirl thinks about how ww is so into the whole asking hera for help thing and how grundy's looking for his soul and when he's about to die he says, "will grundy find his soul now?" and hawkgirl was gonna say, "i don't believe in that" but instead she said, "yes. i believe you will." then he died. it was so, "AWWWWWWWWWWW." sadness.

watching rotk always makes me sad. not just the fact that "oh man it's the end and frodo's going away!" but also the. you know. like. the end of a production. something you've poured your heart into, that you're never gonna experience again, that changed you somehow. it's over. that. gut-wrenching feeling of emptiness, you know? i get that, when watching rokt, and it's not a good feeling. it's like, "aww man i'm never gonna prance around like crazed water lily or reeds or ducks or whatever we're sypposed to be now or stare avidly at invisible birds again!" you know what i mean? it's such a great part of your life for so long, like, it's part of your daily/weekly routine and now it's just, over. gone. done. and imagine. the lotr cast and crew have been at it for 4 years! and now. just like that. over. it's sad. empty. and for a while you feel like, hell how am i gonna live without it? but you move on, you know? like. yeah. it's over. you get over it. move on. like. still look at the photos now and then, meet up, but yeah. yeah. no words mann.

i gotta show my sis how saruman dies. it's just so. graphic. whoa. like. ow. i really winced. it's just soooooo freaky. i thought it's be too scary to put there. but i kinda thought they'd do the proper ending, with saruman corrupting the shire, but i guess that'd be too complicated. still. i suppose the violence and gore of his death makes up for it. XP

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